Precious_memories_in_life

2010-02-01T03:06:00.007+08:00

I've finally found a house...and i am so damn excited!!!!
This will be my official 'first home' since i'll be sharing it with my friends; meaning we'll be in charge of the entire house without a landlord living under the same roof.

I just hope things will go smoothly...fingers crossed.

2010-01-15T02:53:00.002+08:00

It pisses me off when i've applied for an on campus accomodation last year in september and yet, i'm still on the waiting list.
I'm sorry but the uni is seriously SLOW. Can't they sort out their shit quicky?
I mean, finding an accomodation is no easy task especially when i have to find one while i'm still away in Singapore.
So so stuck...i don't know what to do.. should i just go ahead and get an off campus accomodation or wait? And i would most probably need to get my own furniture n stuff if i were to get my own accomodation...and i dont even know if i plan to live in frankston for the next 3 years till i'm done with my degree. Haiz

Current Mood: Worried and confuesd

Recap of 2009 Part 2

2010-01-05T14:23:00.006+08:00

19th Dec-25th Dec (Taiwan Trip with y mates, average Temp: 8-17 deg)

Highlights of the trip

Day1-

We reached the airport approx at 8pm.
After reaching our apartment,we were basically settling into our accommodation when an unexpected earthquake hit Taiwan.

It was definitely an experience. It wasn't anything major as it was a passing quake.

Our apartment did however shake quite abit and for a moment i thought the building was gonna collapse.

Day2-

We had an early start to the day. Headed over to Ximending for shopping and sight-seeing, then to Danshui to a place called Fishermen Wharf for more sight seeing and then to Bu Bu for dinner where scenes from Taiwan's F4 meteor garden was shot at.

Day3-

Off we went to DJ's favourite destination: An outdoor doreamon museum

Day4-

We went over to Sogo, Shilin and then a late night shopping at Shida night market.

Day5-

We went over to a country side in the North-East of Taiwan where we had a crazy bus ride up a freaking steep mountain. There were many AMAZING landscapes and many scenic views. And ended the night with a hot spring 'spa'..=)

Day6-

We visited the Taipei 101 tower and then decided to do some last minute shopping before rushing over to the airport!

Recap of 2009 Part1

2010-01-05T13:23:00.030+08:00

26th November- 9th December (Trip to the States; average temp: -1~12 deg)

Highlights of the trip
Nov26th marks the beginning of our family's road trip to USA.
We arrived at JFK international airport on thanksgiving day at 6am after 20 painful hours of flight.
My cousin met us over at the airport n drove to Bayonne where we would be living for the coming weeks.

Day1
We were so shagged, we slept through most of the afternoon and headed over to a family friend's home for dinner.

Day2-4
My cousin took us to an outdoorsy factory outlet with major brands ranging from Gap to PradaSince it was black Friday (the day after thanksgiving), there were major discounts throughout the states.
The discounts were amazing ranging from 50-80% off n i went mental.
I swear, I turned into a shopaholic for the rest of the trip.
Cheack out My buys!

Day5
We crossed over to Pennsylvania; to Princeton town and University.
The weather was gorgeous and the little town of Princeton was just magical.
In the evening, we went over to a family friend's home for dinner.

Day6
We were so tired we decided to stay in for the rest of the day.
The TV became my new best friend.
There were so many channels to choose from showing the latest episode of everything!

Day7
We went over to explore Long island and then did even more shopping...

Day8-9
Me and my cousin Elly went over to Manhattan,NYC to do some exploring.
We went over to Madame Tussuad's, Times Square, Ripley's Believe it or Not, The Empire state building, the site of 9/11, Project runway's workroom, The iron building, MnM's world just to name a few

Day 10-11
We drove over to Washington DC where we went over to the White House, Abraham Lincoln's memorial and other places which I totally cant remember the names.
And for the first time in my life on the way back to Bayonne on day 11th, I saw snow.
It was what I always imagined it to be; soft, icy and cold.
It was amazing

Day 12
We went over to Pennsylvania to a family friend's home for lunch, and dinner.

Day 13
The last day in the US (not surprising) was dedicated to last minute shopping!

Day14
Goodbye NY!

2010-01-03T02:02:00.002+08:00

I'm really looking forward to 2010.
God knows what i have been through last year.
I had it rough; but in a way I've grown up from it all. So, Alhamdulillah.

Resolutions for 2010-
1. Lose weight
2. Excel in University
3. Sky dive
4. Get a part time job
5. Attain my driving license
6. Let go of the past

2009-05-31T13:53:00.014+08:00

Been learning to cook...
Had a go at cooking tom yum, green chicken curry and steak,

well, TRYING i suppose but things are goin pretty gd i guess? haha

And this the new suburb town in Frankston that i've moved to since 3 months back to be closer to Monash Uni.

Its a small town,1hr and half away from the city and 3 hrs away from my aunt's and cousin's homes. I'll just have to make do till i get my license in 4 months time.

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'Life is unfair baby...'

yes it is.

2009-05-27T22:20:00.007+08:00

Gosh...i think i just fell in love with Craig David all over again

Anyways, the past few weeks have been mad crazy,
been drowning in my assignments and finally today, liberation!
now i can Finally start my revision.

I can't believe how hectic uni's becoming,
and i'm only in my 1st sem

I'm really looking forward to the sem break,
not realli sure of what my plans are just as of yet
but hey, keisha's coming back ...whoo hoooo

I reckon its gonna be awesome.

I miss you girls,
somehow december seem so far away...

2009-05-03T20:11:00.012+08:00

My 21st

I had a blast yesterday.
Wasn't sure how it would turn out after the previous night,
but yeay! it turned out awesome. =)

A huge Thank you to Kenny, Hazi, Omar and Surav who was there to take care of me till the end.
God knows how i would have gotten home without them.
thanks grace whom have been tolerating all my nonsense.

And thank you all who called and text me from overseas wishing me a happy birthday, you guys just made my day awhole lot more awesome!

I am so spoiled by my friends.
I've gotten everything i wanted for my birthday
I'm so glad that I've met each and everyone of you coz u guys are truly like my family away from home.
For that,i am so thankful to have all of you in my life. =)

2009-04-25T19:46:00.006+08:00

2009-04-16T14:26:00.001+08:00

This will not come as a shock but ever since i've been here,
i've come across the worst kinds of guys and also the sweetest.

I get it,its the first time everyone's away from home, own personal freedom in a foreign country,go crazy.
But, it doesnt mean you have to turn into the biggest scumbag of the century
I mean seriously, what the hell are the guys taking thats making them so god damn horny?
Its like testosterone levels are at an all time high taking over their brains

Sometimes,you should just keep your hands to yourselves.
Yea i may have some slutty friends,but just because i hang out with them doesnt mean i'm one of em'

I have my own principles and if it dosent rock your boat then fuck off.

Some bitch actually told me: hey you should sleep around,its the best time to do so,we're here and its a highchance we will never meet any one of the guys ever again,'
For fuck sake..if you wana fulfil your dream of being a prostitute be my guest, why the hell did we ever havethat conversation i have no idea. What the hell do i look like? A horny bitch who needs a dick 24/7?You just gave me an idea,i'll get you a freaking vibrator for your 23rd yo.

For how long more do i have to deal with raging hormones???

DEAR GOD, PLEASE BLESS ME WITH A LESS HORNY GUY THIS CENTURY. THANK YOU.

2009-04-15T21:16:00.001+08:00

Winding me up when you're leaving.

Thats just swell.

2009-03-30T12:43:00.003+08:00

Today was the most interesting lesson I've ever had.
Obviously working as an OT you would have to deal with people with special needs
So today we had a taste of how it was like to be visually and physically impaired.
I was moving around the uni campus on a wheelchair and it was actually fun for the first few minutes till i had to maneuver myself around lecture theatres and around the canteen.
Passing through the doors was such a challenge and neither can i get the drinks that i want on the high shelves.
Later in the day my task was to go to Bunnings to get some gardening tools.
Going out in public was awkward cause for once i could not walk through short cuts and such but took a longer route to get into the warehouse and getting stares from people made everything a whole lot worse.
So anyways,the second task which i had to fulfil was visual impairment whereby i had on these glasses that gave me tunnel vision and diabetic retinopathy.
I had to say it was quite a challenge to climb stairs and to find resources on the internet.
Overall through this exercise i can actually understand why clients get frustrated and why they act the way they do during rehabilitaion.

Am going to go into my placement into a rehab centre this Friday.
Am so very nervous...cause i am actualluy going to deal with real life patients and no longer theory based in the comfort of my class.
I just hope i wont screw up cause this whole excercise is 40% of my overall grades this semester...
Wish me luck!

2009-03-28T18:15:00.002+08:00

I hate being sick
Its the worst feeling ever to be in a foreign place,being sick and alone.

Fever
Cold
Tons of assignments
Placements
Tests.

How much more awesome can uni life get? Urgh...

2009-03-21T21:21:00.002+08:00

This is sad
I am actually not looking forward to my 21st birthday
I must be the only chick in the world whose not lookinng forward to her 21st
In fact, it kindda depresses me.

1. I really don't know what to do
2. Every one's back home

I've always imagined family and friends being with me on my big day
Now,...well what can i say?

2009-03-12T21:14:00.002+08:00

Am finally feeling a little bit more at home at Monash
Believe it or not we actually had a 'speed dating' kinda thing on campus yesterday.
Met a few interesting people
And of course one person stood out to me since day one.
Eddie.
Even odder..he's in OT as well
see the ratio of girls to guys is like 10:1
So you can imagine how all the girls are vying for attention from all the guys.
And how can i ever compete with them Aussie chicks?
haha,I'll stick to my pool of international men thank you.

Its finally sinking in i am in OT
what I've always wanted.
And of course tutorials, lectures and labs are now all on full swing.
Yea been rushing about here and there and well...what can i say, i kinda enjoy it really

And the conception that Australians are racist especially in the rural areas..
well i think its a myth
By right i think the Asian actually brought it upon themselves by sticking together and not mixing around
So up till now its like a branded thing. Asians stick together so why bother.
so thanks to all the bloody previous Asians I'm trying to break the stereotype.

2009-03-10T17:42:00.005+08:00

In just one simple song it describes everything on you and me.
I was blinded.
I knew you were so wrong and yet i've convinced myself that one day you'd change.
I've been waiting for so long that in the process I've lost a part of me to you.
And yes,i've never given up so much for someone as i have done for you.
But now i realise its all in vain.
As stupid as this sounds i still love you.
and i think i'll remain in love with you for a long long time until someday someone can actually mend my broken heart.
Its been shattered into a million pieces that even i cant be bothered to piece them back together again.
I wish i could hate you but its just too damn tiring...loving you is actually much easier,its just more natural.
I wish i could say more n pour my heart out but i have no words left to say
Just that i feel like shit and i really hate myself for giving in to u.

Rihanna-Rehab

Baby baby
When we first met I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover and my best friend
All wrapped in one with a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden you went and left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shock that spun me around
And now my heart's dead
I feel so empty and hollow

And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you
You don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame
And now I feel like....oh!

You're the reason why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door

Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

Damn, ain't it crazy when you're loveswept?
You'd do anything for the one you love
'Cause anytime that you needed me I'd be there
It's like you were my favorite drug
The only problem is that you was using me
In a different way than I was using you
But now that I know it's not meant to be
I gotta go, I gotta wean myself off of you

And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you
You don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame
'Cause now I feel like....oh!

You're the reason why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

Oh! You're the reason why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door

Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

2009-03-08T18:43:00.002+08:00

Dammit i am officially in pain

I've never had so much blood tests and immunisation done to me before

and unfortunately my body's reacting in a very weird way

2009-03-03T22:08:00.002+08:00

It was already a big step to move out into Melbourne and now I'm moving away from all my family and friends into a new area just so that i can attend Monash Uni.
Its finally taking its toll on me...I'm feeling all the loneliness and culture shock which i should have experience when i first arrived.
But lucky for me when i first came here i lived with my aunt and hence the culture shock did not arise.
Now that i have finally moved out on my own everything comes crashing down...yeap reality hit me hard.. now i am seriously responsible for my own well being.
I had to make sure i had enough money for food, rent, transport, bills, books, placements, uniforms and what not...its like as though I've been forced to grow up in a matter of days.
Which i suppose i should have done a long time back though i was mostly sheltered by my parents. So now i am learning it the hard way,which in the end actually makes me more independent and helps me learn more about myself and what i am capable of.

And who the hell ever said uni was easy? Shit, that person is a liar.
My four core subjects are really challenging and require loads of commitment...how the hell do people party? Man,i need a crash course in time management...any ideas anyone??

In my course..i am like the only international student and omg its really hard to fit in with the Australians. They talk in a different lingo and tend to stick to whoever they know from Year 12 or whatever...its such a nightmare right now.
I just wanna get over this awkward stage asap and move on to the stage of familiarity.

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Please just let me go.
Don't make this any harder than it already is
You know full well how i feel about you.
Is that not enough?

2009-02-18T20:51:00.013+08:00

Even if i leave you now
and even if it breaks my heart,
I'll give you up.
I finally realise what I'm feeling.
I think i love you.

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Had an awesome time at St Kilda's beach festival.
We were dancing in the streets to live bands...
dining at awesome restaurants with club beats blasting in our ears
Watch people do the darnedest things when they high
Ooh and my fav part is at the funfair where i won my little Huski toy which i love!! (I beat 9 other people in a game whoo hooo)

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A mini meet up/ farewell before i left for Monash.

2009-02-15T18:07:00.002+08:00

Ok i am beyond stressed
Everything is fucked up.
This whole situation is shit.

2009-02-14T21:49:00.003+08:00

This may be over exaggerating the situation but i feel so lost,alone and scared at the same time.
I know what i should do but I'm hesitating,
I know I'm given a choice of a lifetime but I'm unsure,
I am so so thankful..more than anything...BUT ultimately really apprehensive and afraid of the unknown.

2009-02-11T20:09:00.008+08:00

Don't get me wrong i am ecstatic and very thankful to have gotten into Monash Uni.

But given the short amount of time for me to settle admissions, finding a place to live, getting to know the new area, starting anew all over again, not knowing or having anyone close for at least 2hrs drive away...it got to me.

I have no idea why the campus is located so far away from the city centre,i really have no clue.

To make us study and not party? To give us more concentration?

I have to admit the beaches are really beautiful, the area is after all a tourist attraction...BUT shit i grew up in a city state man...where the hell am i gona shop???

The only drive i have (and the only thing to keep me sane) is my love for Occupational Therapy.

I just hope at the end of the day,it will all be worth it cause i promised myself that if i actually got a chance to get into Monash i would work my ass off and thats what i intend to do.

2009-02-06T07:53:00.008+08:00

I've had sleepless nights for the past 3 days which obviously explains the dark rings under my eyes.
I had played out every scenario , situations and results in my mind and finally have made the decision to take up a degree in health science.
I've made the decision and i felt contented. Once again, as usual my family members were there for me to help guide me throughout the decision process as well as my lovelies from back home. Thank you guys so much.

After all the stress everyone of us went through we decided to head down to da beach.
Awesome weather,

2009-02-01T22:04:00.004+08:00

After days of undeniable heat, it was nice to feel the cool night breeze on my face.
But,even the cool breeze could not help contain my anger.
My heels were killing me and i was stuck in the city at 4am with 2 annoying brats.
I'm not putting a label on anyone but I swear...sometimes them rich kids are so god damn spoilt.
Just because they always get their own way back home all the time don't make it right here.

I need a change of environment and i really need different company.
I now see that we're just not working out anymore.
Unfortunately me loosing my temper is not helping the situation.
and I know its a huge flaw of mine that i need to work on.

Regardless. I don't wanna deal with a guy who can't stop smoking 'shit' and getting high all the time.
You told me you've quit. Saying that its all over.
And the most silliest part is i actually believed you.
I believed you and you've let me down, again. Its beyond my comprehension as to why you do it.
But i dun wanna try to understand anymore.
Its over. No more.

But i do miss the old you.
and i know he no longer exists.

2009-01-31T13:03:00.004+08:00

Exams are officially over and now am just anxiously waiting fer the results.
We'll see what courses I'll get offered on tue.
I'll just keep my fingers cross
and on Feb 13th...hello dorm life!

As of now...PARTAY!

and maybe make a trip down to Tasmania or somewhere.
I really need to get the hell out of this heat.
43 degrees man. I was all sweaty and red all the time.
Highly unglamorous.

2009-01-25T18:48:00.002+08:00

Today is one of those days.
Cathy left and i had the whole house to myself.
Its size dosent help...and neither does the fact that my aunt n uncle are on holiday and that the dogs are gone
And i'm in the midst of my exams.
Ha i know..deal with it...
BUT Just for today i wish i was home...have my mom cook dinner...have a chat with dayana or some1 whom i at least know for more than 6mths.
Ok in short i miss home.

Had my first paper on Friday.
It was alright i guess,not too bad and not too good.
"Boyfriend" made a scene at the exam hall
Most people found it funny and highly amusing,
I found it really childish but somehow could'nt help but smile as he turn to look my way.

Arun was by the door.
and as usual he came late and left early.
that guy is still a wonder to me.
The day i figure him out will be the day i'll fully let go.

2009-01-22T18:21:00.002+08:00

Semester ended today and tomoro the exams begins..
Man i took a look at the hall today and it just looked spooky
Gona sit my ass there for 3 hrs straight for all my papers.

Please get the hell out of my life and stop complicating things.
Go make your god damn gf happy in whatever way possible.
I'm sure u cld use ur imagination.

2009-01-21T18:48:00.002+08:00

My head hurts
too much bloody information going into my head in too little a time

Maybe i'm stressing myself out like i always do
but i just cant help it
Too much is on the line

And for once school seem rather mundane and very much a torture

2009-01-17T20:55:00.002+08:00

I am in the midst of preparing for my exams and Gosh i really wish that somehow there'd be more than 24 hrs in the day
I've made myself stay home for the past 5 days to study and my sanity is running out
I so need to get a life. I'm mugging..OMG! i'm turning into Lifa...hahaha (pssst takmo marah hor...hehe)

Anyways i hit an all time low on Friday and thank god for Keisha.
Mere pyar (hopefully its' spelt right..hur)

2009-01-08T23:58:00.002+08:00

I am so not ready to go back to Melb...
If this is how its gona be each time i come home ..
well...this feeling just suck.

2008-12-16T16:14:00.001+08:00

Yay! Cant wait to come home
Will be in Singapore by 10pm next weds and the following morning am off to KL till the 28th of Dec.
Will be flying back to Melbourne on the 9th of Jan'09

2008-12-08T19:34:00.004+08:00

It felt good crying my eyes out today.

For once i could let go of all the emotions that have been bottled up inside of me for so long.

I felt safe and comfort in the arms of a friend.

He's the one person who keeps me sane in all the madness that has been happening and for that i am so thankful beyond words.

Besides that,i am so looking forwad to going home.

I never missed home until i realise the date of departure.

My first stop will be to go to Al Ameen to eat the cheese prata!

I shall NEVER ever complain about the public transport system in singapore

I actually got fined $200 twice for buying the wrong ticket druing my 2nd week of stay.

The 'fine' ticket was only posted to me 4 month after the incident.

How nice. And thats how i got broke lifa!

Niways,happy 18th belated birthday to Keisha!

2008-11-08T20:34:00.005+08:00

Girlfriend came into the picture
Avoidance was the solution

I want what i can't have
Is that so wrong? ( somewhere in my conscience i know it is)

Anyways,celebrated Halloween last week.
I was dressed as a 1960s cabaret dancer hah,

2008-11-04T17:46:00.002+08:00

I shouldn't love you
but I want you
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you
but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around,
I can't let her win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there
just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

2008-10-15T18:04:00.004+08:00

I just have to get this off my chest
Too many things have been happening lately
And i feel like I'm caught in the middle of it all
Sometimes i wish that i was on the outside looking in onto all the mess
But then again knowing things feel kinda....nice i suppose?
Heck i dunno what the hell I'm saying anymore
Its just a bad mix when it includes raging hormones and a brain in the dick

2008-10-05T21:04:00.022+08:00

!Random Update!

Singapore Day in Melbourne

It was alryte,but I kindda expected more

So anyways,EVERYTHING was for free ,I was bloody suprised

Only thing was you had to que in line for at least 45mins just to

get your food which

to me was ridicilous.(Longest que was for nasi lemak and chilli crab!)

Not to mention all the kiasu aunties who cut que with a slumber

face...alamak like want to kena smack liddat...urgh

And i was even more suprise to see so many

Singaporeans,reportedly there was a total

of 1500 crowd that attended the event.(Quite a number of makciks

and pakciks all wearing baju kurong since it was the weekend of hari raya here)

There was a 'special appearance' from the cast of PCK and the

likes of hadi mirza,daphne khoo, suhaimi yusof and some PM and etc.

The following day i was out with my cousins and her friends for some hari raya visiting,

and shit,once again i was surprised to find so many Malays over here.

I do realise that Melbourne is a huge city but hell,i never once bumped into any

Malays ever along the streets and i was thinking where did all of em come frm,

Eid Mubarak celebration in school was so nice

I had nasi briyani after the longest time...Yummy!

And oh, Happy 21st Birthday to Gracie...=)

and Happy 18th to Gahana =)

Spring is here! YAY!!

2008-10-04T21:12:00.002+08:00

Daylight savings officially starts today at 2am

Everything seems really unfair right now
I know about the stupid saying that time will heal all wounds
but i want it to heal now
It fucking hurts each time when i see u around in school
and knowing the truth not only puts me in an awkward position but i feel like i've been stabbed 100 times over
Thats how much i've fallen for u and i just can't pick myself up fast enough.
OK thats it. You suck big time. But,i still love u.

2008-09-30T21:40:00.005+08:00

Since I've been here I've learnt one important thing- I can only depend on ME and no one else
I guess everyone must have known this fact of life early on but I've been deceiving myself all the while
And now I'm learning it the hard way
Don't get me wrong,every one's been really wonderful here
And the place i feel most at home is at school with all the other international students
In some sense we are all each other has
Being away from home, adjusting to a new country, the same common goal...etc
Now more than ever i have to trust my own instinct and judgement,
It hasn't been easy,
I've been thrown into situations and into groups of people whom i don't think i would normally mix with back home
It has very much opened my eyes to what the world is like.
Its not very pretty really,but all i can do is make the best out of it.

Tomorrow is Eid
Another first away from home
I can very well picture all the family gatherings, the outings with my friends,just the entire atmosphere back home.
That's one thing i can't bring with me over here
I won't lie coz i am missing home now.
But its ok, I'll celebrate it here in my own way with Kak Liz and all my other friends.
It won't be as familiar and cosy but it will be just fine,

I would just like to say Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri and Maaf Zahir dan Batin to all my family and friends,in anyway if i may have said anything offensive to aggravate or hurt u or piss you off in anyway,i hope i will be forgiven cause it was never intentional on my part..
May you guys have a joyous and wonderful celebration! =)

2008-09-29T21:15:00.002+08:00

School's starting again tomorrow
and for the first time i am really excited!
Not only because there is a whole bunch of new intakes but i am also one step closer to getting my goal
Had my fun and now is time for me to get all serious and nerdy with the occasional outburst of sorts

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1 week apart and its still the same
Its still all about you

2008-09-17T22:42:00.004+08:00

I've never been so tired from studying till today.
All i want is to make it to the 2nd semester....that is all i want.

And as for now,hell i'm gonna let loose!
I'm in full party mode baby!

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I can't let go,
I just can't
You're an absolute heartbreak right from the start.

2008-09-12T22:56:00.001+08:00

I pretend that we're ok during the day
but when night falls and i'm all alone in bed,
Thats when it hurts the most.

2008-08-23T20:10:00.011+08:00

Ok this is quite a late update but i went ski-ing two saturdays ago..

It was really fun BUT i did frustrated along the way coz its so damn hard to balance yourself on the ice...But anyways...here are the pics!

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First ramadan away from home.

I think its gonna be good...

Thank goodness for friends.

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I hate what i know now.
Stupid me and Stupid you.
What can i do?
Hating you is just so tiring...

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And here's my darling class...Love!

2008-08-10T18:57:00.010+08:00

My first year away from S'pore during NDP,
I was emo ok during the live screening yesterday at Uni
I have to admit that when i was living in Singapore i didnt really bother
but man,when i saw the NDP yesterday i really missed home
Like seriously.
All of us Singaporeans were gathered into a lecture theatre with lots food and stuff and just sat watching the parade.
And we actually stood up and said the pledge and sang the national anthem
so sad right but true haha

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He's like an addiction that i can't deny
Most people said that we're kindda like a wrong fit
But i just can't help it,

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I know this pic update is like a long time coming but heres a pic of my aunt's suburb where i live

and my Uni's main campus entrance...can't wait for spring!

2008-08-03T15:20:00.002+08:00

I got a huge fright as i was coming home the other night
There was this drunk dude on the train and well...lets just say it wasen't a very pleasant encounter. Screw the man.

Whatever, so yeah i've been in Melbourne for almost 2 months now.
Been through alot with the adjustment, making friends, and guys.
Gawd,i really miss seeing malay dudes.
Ok,thats besides the point,
Point is,I've got to admit that once in awhile i just want my friends here.
Sometimes i feel like i'm missing out on all of your lives over at Singapore.
Ok maybe today is just an emo day but I just feel all sad all of a sudden.
In times like this, being here sucks.

But i know tomoro will be awesome cause,i will make the best of my time here.

Being random,I cant wait to move out into the dorms...and that will only happen next feb...DARN..

Till then
Whoohooo fun fun fun

2008-07-17T16:43:00.003+08:00

I've never felt so stupid,I dunno what got into me.
Now i have to fix this mess before he thinks I'm a complete idiot.
I can't go through 7 months of awkwardness.

SHIT

Why oh why when i want something it gets further away and when i don't give a shit anymore it keeps coming.

2008-07-05T17:09:00.003+08:00

A half naked guy with towel on, how much more awesome can living in a dorm get...haha
was really distracted by his rock hard abs, oh yes.

Been exploring the city,getting lost here and there,eating anything and everything,shop till I'm broke...and yes,studying as well.

2 TIPS to NEVER do here

DO NOT EVER go for an eyebrow wax or ANY kinda wax when your skin's really dry.
I did and not only did my eyebrows got shaped,my skin came off with the wax as well.
It fucking hurt for at least 3 days.

DO NOT EVER go out without a coat unless you want to freeze to death,I can promise you that you'll experience 4 seasons here in just a day.

NIWAYS..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST SHORTIE!
Hope you're not looking as ugly with yr chicken pox yeah...nyehehehe
Can't wait to catch up.

Most probably be returning home for a holiday in December..yay!
Can't wait to eat fried kway teow,nasi briani, prata, yong tau fu..everything LA!

2008-06-15T13:44:00.010+08:00

First Week of school turned out to be quite wonderful actually.
I played out all the worst case scenarios in my mind and thank god none of them materialized.
Truly the place is 100% international.
I have never met so many different people from different countries in my life.
Made pretty good friends with 6 girls.
One from Singapore,Malaysia,India,Turkey,Tokyo and Mauritius.

Anyways me and my girlfriends were out in the city yesterday to catch a movie at Crown.
'Sex & the City' is a definite must watch. PLUS the movie is not censored in Melbourne so it was a long 2 and a half hour movie with lotsa ...sex. Haha.

It turned out to be a very interesting evening i must say.
While walking around i notice a group of people who kinda looked...Dead.
There were loads of people dressed as zombies walking around the city.
Take a look...=)

So anyways later in the night i met up with my uncle and aunt to catch a rugby match.
My first and last..i was bored..haha

2008-06-09T12:36:00.002+08:00

Been really caught up with alot of things so a HUGE apology to all since i still owe many people pictures...

Niways mommy went back to Singapore 2 days ago. No surprise; i did cry at the airport but then later on i was fine.
Weirdly enough i kinda feel...calm
I expected me to be an emotional wreck cause mommy and dad aren't here with me,but yay, I'm ok.

But now, the nerves are catching up with me since tomorrow is the first day of school.
I don't know what to expect,i don't know how the people will be,i don't even know where the heck I'm suppose to report to...i just Don't know.

2008-05-27T21:09:00.002+08:00

Alrite, so its already been almost 3 days since I've arrived in Melbourne
and bloody hell the weathers' been crazy.
On the day of arrival it was 7-15 deg and then today it was 4-14 deg.
And guess what?Its only autumn.. not even winter yet...=(

Anyways I went to check out my Uni today and well..it was rather huge,
kinda got lost a couple of times.
Its size is like 2 times the size of bukit panjang or maybe even bigger coz I was only at the reception area building,
However,I was pleasantly surprise that there was a prayer's room (bilik surau) for all the Muslim students to pray in,BUT i got to say the canteen seem pretty...'unappetizing' hah

After the mini 'checking out' at the Uni ,we went crazy shopping for winter clothes in the city
I mean its like the first time I'm buying all the coats and boots that I've seen some CRAZY Singaporeans wear in freaking hot Singapore so i was quite a bimbo in terms of knowing whats too thick or too thin to be worn for winter so yea.

And oh,usually Melby's 3 hrs ahead of Singapore but now coz its nearing to winter, its only 2 hrs ahead and its gets dark by 5 pm as in although its 5pm it looks like as though its already 8pm or something.

AND I'm Still getting used to the German Shepperd...she's grown...again,unfortunately.

2008-05-22T00:18:00.003+08:00

Saturday is drawing so darn near
Suddenly this phrase seem so true..'Time waits for no man'
and Somehow time has left me standing in the dust

I just hope that distance doesn't mean the end of everything

p/s: Apologies for being so sotong, Departure time:9pm Terminal 3

2008-05-12T01:01:00.003+08:00

Thanks everyone for coming to my mini farewell party! heh...
I'll send out all the pics to you guys once I'm done with my packing...Promise! =)

2008-05-03T01:36:00.013+08:00

I've officially turned 20!
I feel kindda...old, Heh.
Niways had a lovely time today,thanks to everyone who sent me bdae wishes and especially thanks also to all those who took the time today to celebrate it with me. Love! =)

p/s:Confirmed flight will be on 24th May, 11pm.

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2008-04-23T23:28:00.004+08:00

It really hit me today that i have approximately 1 month before I fly off to Melbourne,
of course I'm super duper excited BUT i know I'll miss home and everyone terribly.
All these years I have never been apart from my parents(other than school camps,SO NOT counted) and I don't really know how I'll adjust to the situation.

I'm getting more and more nervous just thinking about it.
And of all time, I'm actually arriving in Melb during winter period ...WTF
I freeze when I'm in the office wad more WINTER?

I just hope that I can make mommy and daddy proud and achieve my dreams.
That's the whole point of going over.

This is the biggest step I've ever taken in my life.Wish me luck people...=)

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Tomorrow will be my last day at work
I'm gonna miss all my colleagues and my two bosses sia,they're really a great bunch of people to work with. Really thankful to have a good 'first time' working experience.

2008-04-15T15:04:00.004+08:00

I had fun with you girls today,=D
I'm really gonna miss u guys..

2008-04-02T00:31:00.002+08:00

I know many would jump at this opportunity.
But why am i so god damn undecided and fickle?

2008-03-19T00:25:00.003+08:00

This time i really screwed up big time.
I was seriously super down for at least 3 days.
And on that day itself i cld just cry very easily any place,any time.

But i believe that god will never give you pain,suffering or a 'testing' period that you can't handle,
so whatever it is ,its within my limit and yea, i've moved on.

This is so NOT the time ...its so wrong.

2008-03-02T02:25:00.002+08:00

-Random Post-

Having two faced bitches as friends ain't so bad
It saves you the "shocked" and angry phase,
I mean what can u expect from these kindda ppl ,
saves time as well, don't need to find yrself an enemy since they're kindda it.

Work has been more enjoyable now that I'm getting familair with all the staffs
One sad part-the cutest guy is leaving (got a better offer somewhere else)
There goes my main source of motivation to go to work.Sigh...

Though i really love my family lots n lots,
they can seriously be a huge pain in the arse sometimes.
Certain issues can't be discussed here since i guess it'll get too personal.
All i can say is distance just adds a bigger problem to everything.
especially when ur way over the other side of the world la huh...sheesh.

And yeah its confirmed ppl, A'level results will be released next Friday (7th Feb)

2008-02-24T00:29:00.005+08:00

Its been awhile since i've posted an entry...reason being because i face the computer screen at work for 9hrs 6 days a wk. So u can imagine la huh? haha
Niways i seriously haven't been doing much other than work and spending time with my family and friends.N i really cant think of wad to type either...so lets just enjoy them photos shall we?..heh

2008-02-08T01:21:00.000+08:00

This year wasn't all a happy occasion for the family.
I realize that family ties can be pretty complicated at times and when put on the spot, the feeling really sucks.
I guess it doesn't show on the surface but when dug deeper, ugly scars are found, the kind of scars that though healed will forever leave a mark.

Niways had a German kid over at my grandmother's house this yr.
He's an exchange student studying over at NJC.
Since my cousin's family took part in this home stay thing, he'll be staying over at their hm for 6 mths.
Lucky him, got hong baos as well. And yea initially he din noe they contained money till my dad told him,haa if not most probably he wld hv thrown them away.

Looking forward to the drama club reunion dinner!

2008-02-04T19:29:00.000+08:00

I dunno wads up with today,
whether its Monday blues or just me getting screwed up.
First of all i made a HUGE mistake at work and had to re-do all over again, thank god the boss was nice about it.
Then when i wanted to use the toilet,the toilet bowl overflowed for no fucking reason when it haven't even been used.
Was really looking forward to lunch, was all happy until a bloody bangla squirt his damn water hose at me and smiled...wah lau really wanted to show middle finger i tell you but like what the hell?

Finally felt happiness when i was told that tomorrow would only be half day at work and we'll only start work again next Monday...whoo hoo! Oh, and the boss gave me an ang pao (however you spell it) which was quite surprising to me.
Niways happy CNY in advance to all!

2008-01-25T00:16:00.000+08:00

Once again,Apologies to all the girls.
Unfortunately you guys have seen the ugly side of me.
I don't hold any grudge reading your blogs coz clearly it was my mistake.
So yea, i just hope that i can be forgiven.

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Fuck,every time I've made up my mind something else comes up.
Staying or going is becoming a real issue giving me a HUGE headache.
All things considered going over is not that bad of an idea,but i HATE change.

2008-01-15T22:29:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow's the first day at work,
and I'm super nervous, I mean I haven't worked before in my entire life.
I just hope i don't screw up and get fired before i even get my pay, hah, that would be a huge joke.

Recently,some familiar faces have become strangers to me.
Isn't it a wonder...

I won't say it out loud. Promise.

2008-01-09T00:22:00.000+08:00

For the past 5 days i have been contemplating back and forth about the education path of which i should choose.
And thank god today I've finally come to a decision.
Like seriously...Alhamdulillah.

2008-01-01T00:49:00.000+08:00

The early departure to Melbourne was to see my cuzzy's wedding dinner, and yeah it was a fresh change to the usual local weddings I've attended.Somehow they managed to incorporate songs,dance and games.Over all it was definitely a fun and successful evening. Oh yeah in case you're wondering why the hell i was wrapped in toilet paper,it was suppose to be a game where each participant from each table have to dress up a member into a wedding gown made by toilet paper. It was hilarious to watch how the man 'made' their boobs. And yeah i think my mom n aunt did a pretty good job in dressing me up and showing off my un-curvy body..hah

The folloing pictures are taken at red hill. It was really cold at night... I think the temperature dropped till about 13-15 degrees. So anyways its a cheese factory/ farm of Murray's dad.
It was definitely a lovely evening.

These are taken at Great Ocean road in view of the amazing 12 apostles which well due to erosion and such only 7-8 are left standing.
On the same day we also went to Otway National Park and took a trip to Puffing Billy the following day and had a ride in a steam engine through Sherbrooke forest.
And yeah these are the few pictures out of many...so yeap.

2007-12-27T19:47:00.000+08:00

Whoo hoo! back from Melbourne since Sunday.
Did alot of sight seeing though my lappie seem to be abit screwed up such that i can't view all the pictures saved in a CD.
Niways i went to a strawberry and cherry picking farm...a wine yard / winery ... of course did lots of shopping as well in the city... Eat lots of yummy food from whatever restaurants ...went to a cheese making factory which happen to be my cousin- in-laws' parent's house...visited wild koalas, parrots, snakes and ducks in their natural habitat in the national park and rain forest.. and my all time favorite; a visit to the 12 apostles and a ride in a helicopter above it for a magnificent view..
Ah, and not to forget i also got the opportunity to spend time with my family over there and made new friends as well from the tour group.
Had a few interesting characters.. An eccentric old British couple... An out of place German ... An awesome Canadian couple ... The French girl who was as green as me when the bus drove up a winding road.. And the two Korean and Japanese girls who seriously loved posing for the camera at every stop.
Generally all of them were really nice and friendly ..
Will definitely start uploading pictures soon once i get this damn old thing fixed.

2007-12-06T17:34:00.000+08:00

Got last min tickets to Melbourne so I'm off tomorrow night!
C ya guys soon!...

2007-12-04T20:58:00.000+08:00

Some travel agents are just...horrid
Our travel agent actually unbooked our tickets to Melbourne just because she suddenly lost her freaking brain.
I was so pissed that i was yelling at her in the office like a mad woman and i kinda regret it right now...it was really rude of me to do that but some how at that moment it seemed necessary to let off some steam.
Sheesh!! wad ever i just wanna get out of Singapore la...

I must say although I've been having fun with my family and friends,
at the back of my mind i keep wondering about the A'level results and what i should do after.
Honestly its driving me nuts not knowing.
For those of you who know me well enough, i really want a certain career path so bad that i can't seem to change my mind or take into consideration other options.
Call me stubborn but wad the heck, thats the only thing that i wanna do.

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Korean dramas are like drugs that i can't get enough off.haaaa

Its ok,we don't have to stick together.

And yes,my sub-conscience is my window of opportunity for exploration and chance in life.

2007-11-25T01:41:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates..
Been spending most of my time out with friends and family.

Anyways,I'll be posting a clearance sale of my wardrobe real soon.
The clothes are brand new with only a few pieces worn once or twice...
I am an impulsive shopper so yes.
If anything feel free to contact me yea.

2007-11-14T16:47:00.000+08:00

I can't wait for the A's to end
Two more papers to go and h-e-l-l-o freedom.
The first thing that i wanna do is to get out of Singapore
Oh yes..ASAP please!

And then after, i need to sort myself out.
to clear out all the mess i made.

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Somethings' missing in my life
and i think you're it
I'm here now,
Don't look the other way

2007-11-07T22:02:00.001+08:00

I'm denied of the security i need.

And no.
I do not have a backup plan.

I am freaking out....can't you tell?

2007-10-28T13:15:00.000+08:00

Had a dose of my lovelies late last night.
Whee.. happy happy.

And now back to physics..
The A'levels will commence officially for me on Tuesday...
First paper: Physics paper 3 (30th Nov)
Last paper: Physics paper 1 (20th Oct)

Notice the very much UNAPPRECIATED lag time in between subject papers? sheesh..
Making us all go...
freaky freaky freaky!

2007-10-21T23:07:00.000+08:00

The A'levels is less than a week away.
It is totally driving me crazeeee.
Mostly its because i make me nuts by counting it down like everyday.
Along the way i went psycho...i broke down...i thought of nonsensical things to end my life..how sad am i? I seriously cant believe what the A's is doing to me..but den again i guess i made it happen.
Wish me luck people...

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On Tue(17th Oct) was our tea appreciation..
Somehow i felt that it was unnecessarily cut short
Aniways...it was somewhat nice though i personally would rather prefer a prom after the A'levels.
Believe it or not i have never had/attended a prom before.. how sad la ryte..sheesh
But well,whatever la k.
I can't very well put up all 42 pics ..so here are a few

2007-10-14T23:48:00.001+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all Muslims everywhere.
This is the second year that we as a family celebrated without my dearest nenek(grandmother).
I miss her so much especially during special occasions like these.
The only consolation that makes up for it all is that she's now with God and also perhaps have reunited with my yayi (grandfather).
I know she's at a better place and that thought makes everything ok again.

Anyways a special shout out to a friend whom has decided to embrace Islam..
Its so great...and to see you featured on straights times...thats even more of a shock to me than receiving the news that you've converted dude..heh.
Let us all celebrate raya this year yes.

Here are some pics...not much i suppose..was too busy eating..heheh

2007-10-11T23:32:00.000+08:00

The A's is draining me out both emotionally and mentally.
And then you happened.

When i met you the other day all the memories and feelings came rushing back.
And when you came over i had to fight the urge and stop myself from saying that I've made a mistake.

I didn't mean to fall for you,I'm sorry i kept it all inside.
And now...she's in your life.
Though i had you for only a brief period,you made it special.
And although it hurts alot,if given a chance I'd still go through it again because i had you.

2007-10-04T21:06:00.000+08:00

Let me stay in this deluded state,
I'm happy. So just let me be.
It makes me work so whats the problem?

I've let it all out,and i hope that this will be the first and last time.
Since the main issue wasn't addressed,I'm still trying to pick myself up from the fall...

2007-09-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

Outside of our comfort zone..their harsh reality
Watch till the end. Its not what you think.

Whats your view?

2007-09-26T23:44:00.000+08:00

Had a dose of my lovelies last Sunday.
Dayana mentioned the future.
Having all of us gather again with our individual families 9 years down the road.
Hah...hard to imagine some of us settling down.
No matter, they're definitely the friends that i want to grow old with. =)

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Today was a real downer for me.
Only god knew how hard i tried to hide my emotions and not cry.
I never felt so defeated.
But somehow i guess my emotions were clearly written across my face.
Everyone was being positive and encouraging.
But i know the reality and words said are easy,the action to be taken is the hardest.

My spirit was lifted slightly thanks to the SC minahs
Break fast; though short, was definitely sweet.

2007-09-19T01:08:00.000+08:00

Sometimes reality spoils everything
because
when reality hits
you come crashing down

To the 3 babes,
I am so disappointed that once again everythings screwed up...again and again

2007-09-17T00:06:00.000+08:00

There are just some things that i can't do without.
And since I'm kept away from them for certain reasons
I'm starting to miss them dearly
I've never turn down outings as many times as I've had this few weeks
and I'm beginning to feel crappy.
A little bit of guilt but mostly regret to not be able to enjoy the laughter and company.
But then again i have my own responsibilities to fulfill right now.
Amidst all the jokes and poking fun at one another and sometimes even a little anger
at the end of the day,they are the ones that i can count on and are still by my side.

Freaking Prelims

2007-09-11T23:32:00.000+08:00

Prelims Prelims Prelims.

First of all...I am lacking of sleep ok.
I've got a freaking pimple on my face after so many years of being zit free...sigh
I had only 2 hrs of sleep on the day of my math and geog paper...
Like..WTF rite? haiz...my bad
I need to study geog last min coz my memory suxs

Hmm...Math paper1 was way easier as compared to MY..
So hopefully...a C or B?
But then again, paper2 is a whole diff story coz i suck at Stats.
I'd take a full pure math paper anytime than take stats la ok...eeei
Thats how much i despise stats

And physical geog..OMG
I was half asleep doing the paper and the freaking cold hall didn't help either
As i was doing the paper i was thinking of (in no particular order) : My bed, seafood fish and chips, bubble tea, debating taking a cab home and the toilet.
Hah...if i can get an AO pass...I'd be freaking happy la
I slept for almost half an hour during the paper and missed a whole essay qn worth 10 marks.
My only hope (I'd never thought I'd say this)now to level my score as a whole is HUMAN GEOG.
Goodness gracious me!

And today,Physics...hah physics..
I thought paper1 was pretty doable
And then came Paper2 ,my happiness was short lived.
It was one hell of a tough paper.
I think the teachers cheated my feelings.

And now I've left Physics paper3 Math paper2 and Human Geog..
A'levels : 1 month and 2 weeks away...approximately.

2007-09-07T15:29:00.000+08:00

Am i seriously paying the man to yell and bring me down?
I think i am.

The A's is drawing nearer and nearer.
If only time would stop for a week or 2.
I would be oh so ever thankful.
Unfortunately that is never to happen.

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I keep thinking of YOU.
Thinking thinking thinking
I'm not supposed to.
I should wait..till..well..whenever.

Miss 'Educator',
I really think u have a dual personality.

2007-09-02T00:34:00.001+08:00

My cousin got married yesterday to her auzzie fi'ance and all i can say is that we have an international pool of guests from all over the world.
It was definitely tiring having to help out from 8am all the way till 9pm...
But thats fine...coz its not everyday that i get to get together with the rest of the extended family and family friends.
Niways here are some pics from my phone...
Not exactly proper but yea..I'll upload the rest from the camera soon.

After a LONG LONG LONG day of smiling fer the camera...they decided to 'stone' for their last shot..and it so happens they love this pic....they're weird like that..hahaha

An uncalled for accusation

2007-08-30T17:28:00.000+08:00

I don't appreciate being blamed for something that I don't even have a clue to.
It just seems unfair. Furthermore there are 10 other girls in the clique too .
Why don't you blame them as well?
I've always loved you as a friend.
And to have those accusations thrown in my face without even clarifying the problem with me or rather without warning at all, it really hurts.
Especially because it was from you.
This time you've really hurt me bad.
And somehow i don't think you really care cause in your mind I made the mistake.

2007-08-26T13:15:00.001+08:00

The only reason for my outburst in the last entry about a particular teacher is because she has pushed my button once too many time.
I am tired...I have enough problems as it is to keep this oppressed hatred towards her.
I would want to bring it up but i know for a fact that due to how the education system is run, 'freedom of speech' (not that we have very much opportunity to exercise it) would very much get me into trouble.
Being frank to a teacher does not always go well.
I guess its only human.. who the heck would want to listen about their flaws from a kid?

I hate boys who makes me cry.
But now,its the men.
But i can't deny the fact that I've got my eyes on you.
Unfortunately.
How stupid of me. I know.

Studied with Nani at woodlands yest.
Somehow math was just boring compared to shopping...sigh
The sin of wanting more...
Complain complain complain ah Nani...and then 'mabok' HAHA!

I have to say that being driven by a friend is way different than being in the car with my dad.
It was fun fun fun. hur..(minus the communication break down, or rather the prob of being deaf?)
I shall make it a point to get a ride from 'F1 driver' every once in awhile..ahahaha

2007-08-22T19:25:00.000+08:00

Its never too late to realize one's short comings.
Not realizing it at all is the real failure.

What Emerline said got me thinking.
I guess i don't want to go though some of the repercussion of my own mistakes through other people. So yes.
But if u really piss me off then well.. i need a way to vent out my anger too u know.

I bloody HATE the barren mangkok.
She is the worst teacher i ever had.
I dunno how all of us actually tolerated her for the whole year.
Sheesh... she has to ALWAYS find fault with me.
Gawd.
Not only is she a blardy mangkok, she is unreasonable, biased and rude.
Is a teacher really allowed to yell at us: brainless spineless shameless stupid moron.
If so i can come up with a few vocabulary words to use it back at her too.
Its only fair.

Blog entries will be irregular.
A'level period bebeh.

2007-08-18T00:50:00.000+08:00

Maths was total torture today.
3 papers in 5 periods?
Impossible lah ok.
Seriously.

Medusa.
Acting all intellectual and shit.
You bore me to tears.
Get a hold of yourself.

Went bowling today.
Hah.
One moment i'm getting strikes and the next,the longkang.
Huhu

2007-08-11T23:15:00.000+08:00

Today was one SUPER tiring day k.
AND...hmm, I unfortunately found out a piece of news that pissed me off like mad.
This particular fucker found my x boyfriend hot and said that he was blind to have me as his gf.
You tell me, how can i not be pissed.
I swear...i have said only the nicest things about her coz i dun noe her and therefore cannot judge.
And here she made that damn statement eh.
I somehow cannot get over it.
If only we were back in Fajar i will so go up to her and ask her straight in the face.
What the FUCK la woman!!!!

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Met up with the bestie and bombom.
I miss them oh so much.
I need updates man.
Hope dear Adam gets better from the accident that threw him off his bike...Haiz...race some more la dude..
And to darling Majidah...sorry again I could not attend your sis's wedding.
I miss u babe..we shall catch up soon..
I'm super glad that we kept in touch after all these yrs since pri sch.. =D
Ah and last but not least, get better soon Nir!

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Whee..Finally i have my very own purple room yo.
I suke!

2007-08-09T00:44:00.000+08:00

National day celebration in school today was rather boring.
I"m sorry i know it took alot of effort and time from the NE counsels
but,yeah....

The random meet up with the the babes of bling blang was just awesome.
They definitely made my day. =)

2007-08-03T13:38:00.000+08:00

School yesterday was a total drag
Being sick wasn't helpful at all.
Imagine going through your geog paper with a bleeding nose.
Disgusting and distracting la k.
AND
Since I'm still sick today,
I missed out on lunch with SC minahs...Boohoo =(
Stooopid flu and fever...urgh.
Well,hopefully there will be a next time.

I hope the guilty will be punished
I'm not being biased or hateful here.
I just want justice. Thats all.

Its funny how you and i see each other in school every day and just walk past each other without any form of communication or acknowledgment. Weird? I dunno.

Blasting in my i pod this instance

Sunrise Avenue

- Forever Yours

There are times I can leave my heart wide open
There are days I believe I can heal wounds on me

There are times I could come to you and hurt you
I could easily bring your tears
I could send you to hell, I know you

[2x]
I will find something more
Someone I am made for
Shame on you baby
Forever yours

You were mine and I was yours for one night
You were mine and there is no one who's like me

These screams they wake me up in the night
They violently fill my room
They keep me awake. I hate you

[4x]
I will find something more
Someone I am made for
Shame on you baby
Forever yours

[whisper]
Forever yours

[3x]
I will find something more
Someone I am made for
Shame on you baby
Forever yours

2007-07-31T20:22:00.000+08:00

When fatigue takes over your body
When sleep deprivation becomes a habit
When you get puffy eyes,
a blocked nose and a rockers' voice
I guess you should stop whatever the heck you're doing.
But what if time is not on your side?
I guess stopping to take a break is not an option.

Song of the moment:

artist: Norah Jones
song: Come Away
With Me

Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song
Come away with me on a bus
Come away where they can't tempt us
With their lies I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows knee-high
So won't you try to come
Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountaintop
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you
And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me

2007-07-22T16:24:00.001+08:00

There's just so much to do.
24 hours in a day is just NOT enough.
If only there's 30..hmm..awesome.

I spent almost 7 hrs in the library yesterday and i still have piles of workload undone.
Talk about madness.

My new best friend: The radio and my apple.

Men in black.

2007-07-20T21:49:00.000+08:00

Today was parents teacher meet.
My parents were 100% on my side.
And thats what make me feel so bad.
I feel so guilty.
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OK. dayana,you have officially talked me out of buying the tee from queen couture.
Something about jiggy babats..ahahahaha
I shall go get a dress I've been eying then. =D

I am totally in love with this song.
And no, it DOES NOT apply to me in anyway .

Natasha Bedingfield - Soulmate

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

2007-07-18T23:36:00.000+08:00

I got a hug from Siti today!
Whee!..ahaha i miss that woman alot la.

Had seafood fish and chips and bubble tea with natty today after school.
YUMMY!
I feel the pounds adding on man.
Food:Guilty pleasures.
But,if u ask me to exercise...ahaha...nvm ah.

Last sat,haiyo wasted 10 bux on a physics test at NIE.
Wah lan..some qns i never see before in my life sia.
I also watched Harry Potter last sat with Lifa and Nir.
I did like the show.
I dunno why people have been telling that the show is boring.
I mean yes,they have alot of conversations,but i still think its fine.
Aiya,kla diff people different views.

12 weeks.
Thats all i have till the A's.
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I have to say that a certain teacher is really getting damn *&^%$#
Only negativity comes out from his/her mouth.
I mean if you dun have anything encouraging or have nothing nice to say, you can do the world a favor and just shut up.

You once said that you don't have friends.
And now i see y.
You don't deserve to have any really.
You're a better enemy than a friend anyway.

2007-07-13T20:39:00.000+08:00

Yes. I have made a promise to Mommy and Daddy.
And now all i have to do is keep my word.
Easy right?? NO ah!!

Haiz..Mid-year was horrible.
I passed GP for the first time in my life and did horrible for the rest of the papers.
What? Cannot pass everything ah??
Parent-teacher meet...haha..I am so dead la.

I see a sea of disappointed faces around in school.
Not exactly the happiest of days la huh.
Stoopid week and on top of that.
I had 1 and a half hour of pure hell from the tuition teacher.
If i can handle all sorts of vulgarities and harsh criticism from him...then i guess rumors and gossips are relatively easier to handle(B'coz in the first place they are bullshit and untrue) cause they are nothing compared to the hell i went through listening to his no-compassion-straight-in-your-face speech.
So yes. Hence my freaking monotonous-expressionless face today.

2007-07-08T01:31:00.000+08:00

Today for once i can genuinely say that I'm happy ..thanks to my dearies.
The day started off with tuition..BAH
and then sobs i got 'dumped' by farhan after watching Transformers which by the way is an awesome must watch movie k people!
ha ha n tadaa..i was saved by 3 shining nights in armour (haaaa)
N yada2 we all met up again along with the birthday girl n farhan.
Had a 'starter' at ben and jerries and somehow we ended up at Arab Street
Went for dinner at zam zam...dessert at I duno whats the name of the shop and had a little belly dancing 'show' and for supper we had some turkish fries thinge with sheesha at some alley shop la..haa.
I must say that the guys have grown into men.=)

About LIVE EARTH
I really applaud the effort put in and all BUT,
honestly how far can a live concert change the minds of people who are preoccupied with materialism and economic gains in their minds ...and well, wars for others...can being environmentally friendly really have a place in todays' society?

Anyways...here are some pics...Will upload more after Adam sends it over..-_-

2007-07-06T02:35:00.000+08:00

Don't promise me forever coz i HATE liars.
Don't tell me I'm the most beautiful girl in your eyes when your eyes wonder around the streets of orchard road(of all freaking places)
Don't tell me that you see a future with me-you're still a student,living off your parents.
Be realistic...are u kidding me?!?!
And oh...classic
Don't EVER EVER tell me that I'm your soul mate when u haven't met enough 'variety' of girls to even make that decision.

SO,
Call me when you are found
Cause as for now I've given up on 'love' altogether.

All the ups and downs of the relationship...
The fights...
The make ups..
The sense of being loved and security..
Having someone by your side aside from family and friends...
and BLAH BLAH BLAH

I need more than that.
Its just no longer enough.

If you can only understand me,
my needs are just hard to be met,
Cause the meaning of being in love has changed in my eyes.

2007-06-30T02:28:00.001+08:00

Today i witnessed stupidity
among the educators.
Enough said.

and oh,
My timing for some aspects of my social life suxs

2007-06-20T20:56:00.000+08:00

Please help sign
the petition
to save dolphins from the
cruel fate!

Hi everyone, I just watched this video on dolphins

massacre in Japan,it is really cruel. I can't

imagine what possessed the minds of these people

to be part of such inhumane acts. The video takes

awhile to load,please be patient. And the video 

can be a little painful to watch too, but please

do watch it, and spread it around so that more

people can be aware of this and can help do their

part in stopping these brutal murders.

Video Link: http://www.glumbert.com/media/dolphin

Dolphins are such beautiful and intelligent

mammals but yet their numbers are reducing

around the world. Fishermen who catches tuna

in huge numbers do not care that tunas like to

swim around dolphins, and do not even bother to

help dolphins that were caught in their net

back into the sea,and instead left them to die.

Fishermen in Japan as shown in the video engage

in such inhumane act to pass off dolphin meat

as whale meat.Please help the dolphins. They do

not deserve to be wiped out from the face of this

world in this insanely inhumane manner.After

you're done with the video, please sign this

petition.

Thank You.Pls help spread this around too...

Petition Link: http://www.theoceanproject.org/actfordolphins/

2007-06-16T23:02:00.000+08:00

Omg...i am so VERY outdated on malay songs..
Indon bands are getting pretty good honestly.

Niways,the bling blang reunion was a blast!

Let the Photos do the talking...
ENJOY!

2007-06-16T00:14:00.000+08:00

You and me..
WE ARE DIFFERENT
I'm not better nor am i worst
We are just DIFFERENT.
Drill that into your mind will you?
Cause if everyone were like you,
This world will be a hard place to live in.

Some things are just beyond me
I can't comprehend your situation cause i think its bull.
But then again i am not you.

These few weeks have been rough,
but i am trying my hardest to handle whatever's thrown my way.
Every unfortunate event that happens,
I'd count my blessings and feel thankful to Allah.
I may not always be whats expected of a 'Good' Muslim,
but irregardless,what i do day to day i think of God and the
consequences of my actions.
I try my hardest to make the right decisions,
but sometimes i just falter recklessly.

I can't help but feel resentment towards you.
In fact the feeling of hatred is brewing deep within,
I am being patient and putting up with your nonsense,selfishness and
your always wanting your loss to happen to other people attitude,
Just because I am unfortunately related to you.
I love my parents and my family,
and that is the only reason as to y i am keeping my mouth shut.
If i have my way,i will downright strip you off your selfish pride and
bring you down.
Cause behind your 'helping hand' there is always a motive to your
actions to somehow turn the situation around to benefit yourself.
How infinitely shameless and self involved are you?
My parents are just way too nice at times which i sometimes find it
incomprehensible as to y just because we are family
How can u live with yourself..
Oh right,i forgot,you don't have a conscience because if you do i suggest u
do some self reflection on your part and sort out your pathetic mind.
You just HAVE TO piss me off now la huh. Thanks ah.Your like so considerate.