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Learning to forgive & forget
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
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Who in the world is perfect? come on!...getting cheated, backstabbed, hurt etc is really painful but i think one has to learn to forgive n let go which is easier said than done of coz ..i never really experienced it but being hurt by frens and family..oh yes many times..But of coz hurting sum1 intentionally is a different story ...but i'm sure there is a reasonable explanation for everything if not , its just pure hatred n jealousy and wadeva else there is to it ..i myself find it hard to forgive...i even hated a person so much that it juz drains me out n when i finally learn to forgive n forget...its like a load off my shoulders ..seriously,i have hated sum1 for like years n when i finally came face to face with dat sum1 after so long i dun even remember where so much hatred came frm...i dun even know y i bothered...i mean now i look at her n i think hey, y did i even bother to give a shit or even spared a moment of my time for sum1 who is of zero importance in my life...So yeah ,now all i care is abt the ppl ard me ..those who matters the most..
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sick & tired & missing u
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
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literally...i'm sick n tired of my life...dun get me wrong i love my life n the ppl in it but honestly at times i feel like i dun have a life...its just too routine..wake up go to sch go tuition study slp...gosh n my outings with frens n family too are getting limited ,every1 now bz..back to sch work n so forth..i miss the times i spent with radzi acting all goofy and of coz our lovey dovey moments..i miss dayana ,her jokes n sarcastic remarks of things...i miss lifa,her ever blurness yet wise n logical in her perspective of things..i miss nirwana her patience and kindness...i miss farhan his stupid goofy ways...i miss faizal,the blur n whiney one,haha,nola i miss our talks n just u noe hanging out..i miss ramesh the one whom constantly is very mean to me..yes i still miss u tho,haah..i miss my beary fren nazirah the one whom is ever so cute n easy goin alwaes so self conscious of her looks...i miss fishy yasmin the wise and grown up one..i miss stringbean ernest the ever gross dirty talking partner of mine...i miss kavi n sheena our talks and the sarcasm btwn us..and of coz i miss the one and only koky..and i miss a whole lot more of ppl... my pri sch frens..my obs mates..my tuition mates n of course family frens...where ever all of u mayb u guys are constantly on my mind and missed ..
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CIP day
Friday, April 14, 2006
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today is our cip day n we went to this old folks hm and gosh was it real depressing...the moment we saw the place..well its kindda rundown n its surrounded by mansions n bunglow hses...so imagine the contrast.n when i entered the first thing i saw was this one old lady on the bed looking so helpless n extreamly small in size and all i cld think abt was my late granny during her last few wks in the hospital...at that moment sadness had already engulf me n i juz hope that the situation inside wont be as bad..was i wrong i almost wanted to cry when i saw this particualr old lady..it was very apparent that she was blind as i saw her being held by the nurse to go to the toilet..later i found out that she is also deaf n i felt so guilty coz i cld not do anything...me n nat did talk to this sweet old lady who told us abt her life..tho she is already 96 she is pretty strong for her age n her memory is still strong she told us that she went to england to study to be a matron..pretty cool...and she told us abt her life there and how happy she was that we came to visit coz she woke up real early that morning to bath n comb her hair to look all nice n pretty b4 we came...she's so cute i tell u...then yea i got to noe afew other cute grannys too..the worst part was when it was time for us to leave....tho they were smiling saying good bye to us the sadness in their eyes really showed n i felt extreamly guilty coz we were there only to fill our CIP times ...to carry out our duty n not out of our own free will.. i'm sure its a horrible feeling to see many diff people come and go to visit them n only a few return for frequent visits..i wld love to go back there but i doubt i'd have the time..its not that i dun care but honestly at one point or a another i juz dun noe wad to say to them...the conversation will juz end abruptly n then awkwardness sets in,..sigh..when i was there i kept thinking abt how it wld b like for me when i'm old...will my children take care of me?will i b in gd health?will my husband still b by my side?..and then i tot abt death...will it b painful?wad wld life after death be like?how wld i answer god for all my sins n wrong doings?...i got scared i tell u...it sounds stupid la...but sumhow i feared death....then i tot abt my parents..hoping that i can be a gd daughter to them..take care of them n to provide for them as how they have done for me..i am the only child n they can only rely on me..so yes i will take care of them coz i so do not want them to be on their own...
Anyways my common test results really sux...MATH:C PHY:AO PASS GEOG:D GP:D7 MLY:E8...many told me to quit sc...but i feel dat its not bcoz of sc..mostly is how i maximise my time...yes i agree that sc takes up alot of time but believe it or not i enjoy it coz of the ppl i feel like as tho they are my second family..the bond is there...we've been thru many things 2gether..shared many tears n joys along the way too...so how can i give that up considering that i am not in talking terms with a few of my classmates my sc family are the ppl that i can rely on in gd n in bad times..so yes....i guess i have to make many sacrifices for my studies...by cutting down the long hrs on the phone and not going out as often with my dearies n my darling...i noe they wld understand...and i am at ease coz regardless i noe they are always there for me as i have been for them all these yrs...love u guys to bits..cant imagine life without any of u..
Anyways my common test results really sux...MATH:C PHY:AO PASS GEOG:D GP:D7 MLY:E8...many told me to quit sc...but i feel dat its not bcoz of sc..mostly is how i maximise my time...yes i agree that sc takes up alot of time but believe it or not i enjoy it coz of the ppl i feel like as tho they are my second family..the bond is there...we've been thru many things 2gether..shared many tears n joys along the way too...so how can i give that up considering that i am not in talking terms with a few of my classmates my sc family are the ppl that i can rely on in gd n in bad times..so yes....i guess i have to make many sacrifices for my studies...by cutting down the long hrs on the phone and not going out as often with my dearies n my darling...i noe they wld understand...and i am at ease coz regardless i noe they are always there for me as i have been for them all these yrs...love u guys to bits..cant imagine life without any of u..